New Episode This Wednesday..

I'm changing direction this Wednesday. Huge step? High risk? well, to be honest I don't know as I can't see the future. But I will regret if i don't take the chance now especially at this age. I think the best is TAWAKAL dan USAHA untuk yang lebih baik. Hanya Allah yang tahu what i really want in life and let it be our secret.


This blog has been sleeping for quite a while.. Its time to refresh it with the journey of my new life. Cuma masa je belum ada lagi. I'm sure I will have more time to write after this Wednesday..so till then..

Nonstop FEVER!

Demam baik demam baik demam... Fobia masuk wad ICU dek demam denggi berdarah masih terasa lagi. So kalau rasa-rasa demam especially tambah ngan menggigil waktu subuh memang soram skit..

Bayangkan, tongah hari ok siap gelak2 ngan memember ofis melantak asam pedas bekalan ibunda, alih-alih dalam kul 3pm camtu rasa tekak ni panas, pastu idung tersumbat tak leh nak nafas.

The scariest part was how I can feel drastically the symptom conquering my immunity system.… First sore throat, 30 minutes later spreaded to my nose causing me trouble to breathe, then 30 minutes later severe headache then vomit then I can feel my bone was shivering like `nak kena cili ngan nenek’ oooh.. dear.. Sikso nak call retailers persuade masuk campaign, idung tersumbat, nak nafas tak dapek. Mission totap kono accomplish.

Nak tunggu jarum kul enam tu rasa lama giler k! Tapi ku tahan Jebat! Nasib la my dear friend Rina sudi temankan ke parking. Yelakan, kang pengsan lak sapo yang larat angkat lak kan! Thanks Na! Appreciate it so much!! I was just too weak that time to portray any sign of appreciation. But the truth I was touched and sick at the same time. MMUUUAAAHHH!

En. Abang ku Baby ku lak time ni la nak wat magic main nyorok-nyorok kat parking tu. Orang dah nak pitam lagi mau bergurau senda dipetang Jumaat yang suci itu.. argh!!

Sesampai umah mak, fever terus up up and away! jadi lepat pisang la jap, berbungkus dari kepala ke kaki. Sedih kena tinggal sorang2 sebab suma kuar ngan aktiviti n commitment memasing. Well, Im a big girl right! *sigh*

Tapi thanks to Pat kerana sudi menjaga diri ini! sanggup berujan ngan si utih tomel beli panadol.. Makasih Pat dari hati yang terdalam uhuks! Kamek terharu sebenarnya, ya la mek suh kitak pulang jak sibuh neman mek gik, padahal mek sebenarnya takut diam sorang dirik..hehehe..

Makan ubat..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I've Become So NUMB!

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
every step that I take is another mistake to you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
is falling apart right in front of you
every step that I take is another mistake to you
and every second I waste is more than I can take.

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

And I knowI may end up failing too
But I know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there